One of these days

I'm actually going to care. I hope today is the day. But probably not. I'll be back though. I can promise you that.

Dang Halloween

Why is it that I always have a place to lay blame for my love affair with junk food??? It's my own fault that I can't control myself. What am I going to do? I lost 5 lbs but I'm sure I've put it back on. I don't even dare to step on the scale. Ugh. What's it going to take?

I was thinking today about how much weight I've lost in my life. I probably weighed around 125-130 when I got pregnant with my first baby. I remember saying that I would never get over 160 with any pregnancy or otherwise. That lasted for a few kids, then it went to 165. Then 175... You get the picture. So now here I am, seven months out from kid #7 and I'm almost 15 lbs heavier than my original "never gonna go over this" weight!! AGH!

Lets do some math: say I weighed 140 when I got pregnant with Jace. (That's actually now a happy & healthy place for me to be...) so if I averaged a 30 lb weight gain and loss on every kid - maybe I hovered right around 130 -140 for the first few then 140 -145 for the more recent years - that means SEVEN times I've gained 30 lbs and SIX times I've lost it again... adding up to a total of 180 lbs that I have lost and now another 30 to go! Holy Crap that's a LOT of weight!!! No wonder I feel like a freaking yo-yo. Up and down and all over the stinking scale. Losing the weight in between babies is getting HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So is it Halloween's fault? No. I guess not. and it's not the babies' fault. It's just my own. But still...

Stats

Weight: 170.6
BMI: 28.4

Well, it seems like longer than a week has passed since I last checked in. I am doing terrible. I mean, I'm fine and all, but my goals taking me towards "healthy and happy" aren't being met because of my ... what, I don't know... lack of willpower, laziness, obsession with ice cream... AGH! It's a miracle that my wight has remained steady because my eating and sleeping habits the past 2 weeks have been HORRIBLE! What am I going to do? How am I going to stay on this train????

Stats

Weight: 170.2
BMI: 28.4


Haven't been keeping track of what I eat so falling back into old habits. Need to do better. Trying to find willpower to do so. Shouldn't looking in the mirror be enough?

Stats

Weight: 170.4
BMI: 27.6

The past week has been a wreck. I'm not exercising like I want to, not getting enough sleep or water and not eating all that great. I'm not doing too whipy at tracking my food intake either, and hadn't stepped on the scale in a few days so this morning I was expecting the worse when I weighed myself. I was very surprised and happy to see that I had dropped below 171 and my goal for the week is to do better and try to get into the 160's! Here goes nothing!!!

Stats

Weight: 171.8
BMI: 27.8

Stats

Weight: 172.8
BMI: 28.8